Christmas Makes Me Sad
Posted: Thursday, December 24, 2009
by Michael Gaffley
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I just felt so sad tonight. I am actually feeling lonely. Everywhere around me people are happy and jolly. I can hear the Christmas music and the Christmas carols. I can see the Christmas trimmings and the Christmas clothing. The wafting aroma of Christmas food is tempting. I hear the church bells ringing. I hear the trumpets heralding in the 2009 Christmas season. I am thinking.
Wow! This pain is overwhelming me. I have just been thinking about how some people have been treating me all my life. It is as if they despise me. What did I do wrong? How did I offend you? Have I ever been nasty or mean towards you?
Why do you do this to me? Why are you so mean? Whether it is Christmas, New Year or even my birthday, you just do not care. You go out of your way to humiliate me. You look at me as if I am a piece of trash. And trash can sometimes be admired especially if it has some glitter. You however, see no glitter in me. You jump in and push me out of the line. You always want to get ahead of me as if I do not exist. You show no respect for me. You go out of your way to be rude to me. You demean me when you are with other people.
My hair is too short and too curly. My clothes do not appeal to you. You do not even care that you hurt me. You do not even care that your behavior towards me often makes me cry, alone. You talk about me as if I do not exist. How can I help you understand that I am human too?
Look at fruit, it does not look alike or even taste alike. Some people like some and dislike other kinds of fruit, and that's okay. People do not go out of their way to seek out a banana just to trample it in order to show that they do not like bananas. An apple is not as round as an orange, as curvaceous as a pear or as oval as a kiwifruit. I have no right to discriminate against an apple just because its outside does not conform to the shapes and sizes and colors of other fruits.
If you cut across an apple, you will discover that an apple has a star inside. Likewise, if you could just for one moment forget about what I look like on the outside and see my star, my character on the inside, you might treat me with more respect. I cannot help for how I look on the outside and I am making no excuses for who I am because I am just as human as you.
You know who you are. You know who I am.
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Why do you do this to me? Why are you so mean? Whether it is Christmas, New Year or even my birthday, you just do not care. You go out of your way to humiliate me. You look at me as if I am a piece of trash. And trash can sometimes be admired especially if it has some glitter. You however, see no glitter in me. You jump in and push me out of the line. You always want to get ahead of me as if I do not exist. You show no respect for me. You go out of your way to be rude to me. You demean me when you are with other people.
My hair is too short and too curly. My clothes do not appeal to you. You do not even care that you hurt me. You do not even care that your behavior towards me often makes me cry, alone. You talk about me as if I do not exist. How can I help you understand that I am human too?
Look at fruit, it does not look alike or even taste alike. Some people like some and dislike other kinds of fruit, and that's okay. People do not go out of their way to seek out a banana just to trample it in order to show that they do not like bananas. An apple is not as round as an orange, as curvaceous as a pear or as oval as a kiwifruit. I have no right to discriminate against an apple just because its outside does not conform to the shapes and sizes and colors of other fruits.
If you cut across an apple, you will discover that an apple has a star inside. Likewise, if you could just for one moment forget about what I look like on the outside and see my star, my character on the inside, you might treat me with more respect. I cannot help for how I look on the outside and I am making no excuses for who I am because I am just as human as you.
You know who you are. You know who I am.
Please join www.searchwarp.com
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Top-level comments on this article: (5 total)Thanks for opening up Michael. This article deserves a Warp vote.Your kindness fuels my courage
Hi Michael,I hope the sadness you feel subsides quickly. Thanks for sharing and know you are loved no matter what you look like or who you are.Blessings,MichelleYour thoughtfulness inspire me.Your thoughtfulness inspire me.
hi michael,i have felt the same way my whole life, and asked similar questions.when i finally had enough, i toughened up. i won't be anyone's doormat.sometimes, the world, and the people in it, can be very cold and mean spirited. christmas was the first year out of 24 that none of my 3 kids were home. and yes, it was a lonely day.i made it through, because I made it through. no one helped, no one was here. we need to rely on our hearts and minds to tell us who we should steer clear of, and who will make us feel good. better days are coming,my best to you,sue
There is such depth of feeling in this article. I am hoping that this loneliness and sadness will abate. I have experienced some low times and, I firmly believe, that you stick it out and the sun shines again another day. Honest to goodness - life's peaks and valleys come and go like the tides. Some of the reasons you mention in this piece are what prompted me to write my article about how to be happy a while ago. Best to you!Appreciated. You fuel my courage to pursue joy.
I am sorry you had such a sad Christmas Micheal. Sometimes when I let sadness overwhelm me I stop and look at all the good things that have happen and that usually overtakes the sadness I feel. Wishing you a better New Year.I apperciate your caring spirit. At Christmas time we need more than spirit; we need presence.
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